My Friends, My Niijii...

 

Dear Niijii,

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I experience the world. How I see right and wrong, good and evil, truth and illusion. I wanted to share that with you. Not because I want to change your mind, but because I want you to understand mine.

I am different than most. My mind naturally sees in patterns, logic, and structure. I tend to look at things through facts, consistency, and clarity. It’s not just how I think. It’s how I stay grounded in a world that often feels unpredictable and overwhelming.

In a world that constantly labels things as “right” or “wrong,” “good” or “evil,” I sometimes struggle to find where I fit. Those words don’t always feel clear to me. I don’t always respond to them the way others do.

Most people use emotion to guide their sense of morality. They respond to what feels right. They follow stories, customs, or instincts. My mind, on the other hand, wants to understand what actually makes something right or wrong. I look beneath the surface and ask different questions.

Is this action causing harm?
Is it based in truth or fear?
Does it help or hurt others?
Is it consistent, or is it just familiar?

Over time, I’ve come to see that “right” and “wrong” are often shaped by culture, emotion, or history. They aren’t always universal. And while that doesn’t make them meaningless, it does make them more flexible than most people admit. I’ve learned that morality can be both real and relative, and that’s something I sit with often.

At the same time, I know how dangerous it is to treat our ideas of right and wrong as unchangeable. If we label someone as evil, we stop trying to understand them. If we assume we’re always right, we stop listening. I don’t want to live that way. I want to stay open, even when I see things clearly.

Instead of relying on emotion, I try to see through a different lens. I lean into logic, but I do it with compassion. I may not express my emotions in the same way as others, but I still feel deeply. I care about truth. I care about people. I just move through those feelings differently.

I want you to know that I’m not cold. I’m not distant. I just see the world through structure and clarity. And I believe that perspective can be a gift, not a flaw.

If I question something that others accept, it’s not to criticize. It’s because I care. I care about fairness. I care about the why behind things. I care about helping people see what might be hidden beneath the surface.

I don’t want to win arguments. I want to understand things fully.
I don’t want to impose my view. I want to be respected for having one.
I don’t need everyone to think like me, but I do want them to know that I think with intention.

Thank you for listening. Thank you for being someone who’s willing to see me as I am. That means more than I can express.

With all my heart,
Clovis